On a another website i work on i had the honor of interviewing current Detective Comics writer Greg Rucka, it was a great interview i was nervous when we started but within seconds i felt at ease. We got on the topic of Batman villains and he offered his thoughts on The Penguin: He stated that The Penguin was smarter and actually able to defeat Batman, but because Penguin hates himself so much that he will always be the reason for his undoing.
Whoa... this hit home for me, for the next minutes i just sat there staring something on my desk not really focusing on what my colleague and Rucka where talking about it, i quickly realized and went back to my portion of the interview.
Everyone knows how frustrating it is to figure something out that is so obvious and right in front of you that you refuse to even acknowledge cause in your mind you have convinced yourself it is something much bigger and complicated...i did this a lot when i was computer tech, and i still do when looking at a computer problems, i have a theory why but i will get into that later... basically who doesn't love a good mystery.
Someone at work asked me the other day why i was so negative all the time, i brushed off the question and then followed it up by my typical sarcastic style and dropped it.
The truth being: I hate myself, i always knew i have and stood in my way because of it, but i guess hearing of a different example of someone (albeit a comic book character) that can do amazing things but in the end cause of his hatred for himself he fails...
So maybe if i allow myself to breathe and move forward i might make something of this life, i don't need to beat myself up for every little failure, it is ok to stumble from to time to time. Only then i can grow to like the person in this skin.
